Some Closure's

Hmmm...life itself? What is life? It's a on going series of moments. Time is a big part life and no part at all. How can there be a future without a past? In (My) lifetime Ive had many up and downs.

Emotion has always been a big part of my life. Whether happy or sad either has been taken to the extreme. Ive laughed harder then others and cried more than some.
Ive loved many things and have had my heart ripped from love's grip. Reaching a closure is a milestone. A very hard milestone to reach. For time plays a major factor in closure.

Now, What is Closure? Does a thing like this really even exist? Good questions both of them. Closure is a piece of time that weighs on your very being. Time plays a heavy role in closure. Closure is just that a closing of time. To answer does it exist. Yes I think yes.

Again I have reached two very important closure's in my life. Timing was the key. These events of closure were closed long before in this on going series of moments. I just had to wait for myself to catch up to these events in time. One was a Debt and one was a relationship. I know for sure the debt is paid off. I know now for sure the relationship is over. The weight has been lifted. I want to stay positive.


Off subject. I feel a need to travel. I'm sending out thoughts of world travel.
I was born in Japan. My Mother told me my birth story. While in Japan I became a life. My moments started ticking. I was born in Oct 1960 I am now 49. To get back to the birth story. I was born in a very rural part of Japan. It was a long Bumpy dirt road to Hospital. I think that has something to do with who I am now. Even moments before birth add up. I recently attended a party. There were two people there from Japan. They were both Oct babies. Very nice people. They said that I needed to go back to that bumpy road and just listen to the sounds. They said it will fill in my soul to hear those noises and sights and the area has not changed that not over the years. I feel this need inside me to return. I have always felt different as american being born in Japan. So I am sending out thoughts of world travel.

Back to closure. Before because of my debt I could not obtain a passport. Now that I have closure I can. Life is full of openings and closings. I'm happy for what Ive achieved thus far in my life. There are so many things I love and that love me back.
So I still have relationships. I'm happy to have written my post before this and still be on path. I will end by saying closure is just another opening in these moments of life and time.

Strange and Wonderful things are Happening Again

My Life at this point is taking wonderful turns.
It was not so long ago I was a lost soul.
I will be the first to admit that I am No angel.
The Lord works through me as I am his tool.

I will start with a quick story...


My friend like many other people is going through a ruff time.
He got evicted after 16 years of residing in Depot Town Ypsilanti.
I have been trying my hardest to keep him a float and help him as much as I can.
He came over on Monday and needed to talk and make a plan for his exit to his new life. I helped arrange a U-haul and get people to move him along with myself.
As he sat there I could see the stress on his face and feel his emotion in my soul.
He was confused looking for phone numbers in his wallet.
It was at that time that I noticed he could not read the writing on the the paper.
I myself need and use reading glasses and I had just received my new glasses from the VA hospital as my eyes get worse every year. So I offered him one of my old pairs and he accepted the kindness. He remarked that the glasses made a world of difference.
I was happy I could do something to lift his spirits. I myself have been waiting for a Beatles Anthology book I won on eBay for a very good price.

Next day

I go to my mailbox to see if the book had come. Open The mail box and to my surprise
there is a new pair of glasses (return to sender) with my address and name as the sender and they are my prespricption. I sent no glasses to anyone. Im still puzzled as to where they came from and who sent them. I know in my heart where they came from. So I will leave it at that. I came back into my apt and sent a email to the person I won the book bid from. Telling him I hadn't received the book yet. The moment I pushed send there was a knock at my door. Its was the mailman with the book.
I accepted it and said "Thank You". I closed the door, turned around and saw a email pop up on my computer. Its was the book sender with this simple message "It should be there very soon". My mind was blown by the timing and the new glasses are better than the new ones I received a month earlier. I enjoyed the book that much more.


These same kinds of things happened to me in my manic state.

My cards are stacked in my favor as he uses me like a puppet.
I am truly blessed to be where I am in life and hold no regrets.
He is also healing old wounds from my past.
These are wounds that are very personal and deep so I wont discuss them in
this type of forum. Although I'm not afraid to share them in the right setting.
For now I will myself to him as he has more control over me than I can ever have.
In God I trust.
I will say it again.
God is Good.
Love is God.
God is God.
The Lord is everything.
We are all just renters of his kingdom.

Its so easy to get swallowed up in the pain

God Is Good

Hearts Like Mine...This is a Billy Bob Thornton And The Boxmasters tune

Will re-link this song after Christmas

This is a Billy Bob Thornton and The Boxmasters Cover
I played all the parts in my cover of this wonderful song
If you havent ever heard them you should

What a great song!

Just being Boring

Just another thing from the past.
This song was in Ferris Bueller's Day off.
In the museum scene.
Just a love for the song
So I thought Id post it here.

Levis

I used to love this commercial

Did you also know That
Levis spells Elvis-Evils And Lives
Groovy Stuff

Life

This is alittle picture to music I did

Some of the images are from my family life

I wrote this song and recorded myself

when I had cancer I did this for my friends and family

just in case

The words to this song were a one take straight through

I had no words except what came from my mouth at the moment

one study flow only later I did some over dubbing

This was meant more for my kids than anyone

Now is a different time

Perhaps the hour of change has arrived

now thru images and music the words take on

even more meaning

I put this together the nite before

The Election

Hope

There is still time

Change

its reachable

We all must try and strive as a people

All meaning everyone no one left behind

Now

Is when it has to happen

Love

Its not just a word

GOD

is LOVE

Me

Memory

There was a women I knew
A memory of a women
forever fading away
there was a time when
I loved Her more than Myself
was she ever really even here
or was it just my mind playing
another devious illusion in
this crazy theater of time
this absencent thought eludes
her essence her words no longer
have meaning Just a distant Memory

Baby Kittie

This is my Baby Kittie I came across her just over two years ago. She lives with me she's a indoor/outdoor kinda cat. I live in Ypsilanti mi still. Anyway its been very cold and snowy here. I let Baby kittie out about 6 days ago to use the bathroom. Within a hour the weather went down hill. Baby kittie became missing. I went out everywhere yelling for her and she was no where to be seen. I prayed and and prayed and even thanked the lord for the time Ive spent with her. Christmas came and went and still she was not home with me. I would go to the door and open it and yelling Baby Kitttie I would make a fast set of clicking noises with my tongue. Still no Baby Kittie. I did this atleast ever hour. For days Opening and closing the door for her. Today in Mi this morning we got a small ice storm. I was just going out the feed the birds and squeirlls when the city bus stopped in front of my apts.

Continue.....

A very old man had gottan dropped off almost falling off the bus because of the ice storm. I saw how hard it was for him to keep his balance. I put down the critter food in front of my apts and went and caught up to him. As I came up from behind him I said " Coming on up" as not to startle him. I asked if I could help him and he said "bless you may" I walked him to his house about a city block away. The ice being so slippery it took us a good ten mins. We chatted some he was name Henry and his family took him to Christmas dinner. After gettting him safely to his porch with no ice on his steps and a rail I released him and said god bless you and my goodbyes as well as him saying the same type words to me.


I thought for a min as I walked back and turned to looked to see if he was in and he was gone. Seemed very fast for as slow as it took us and for as old as he seemed.
About half way back I said outloud as I walked lord please bring my baby kittie back to me. Not trying to use my good deed as leverage but the thought was in the back of my mind. I came back home slowly into the parking because of the ice. I made my way to the covered walkway by my apts with about five steps up to my door. Thinking I still must feed the critters the birds and squeills and others cats that live near. I was just going to take a short break.

Heres the crazy part. I get to my door nothing and I see everything around because its all white and icey. I open my door to my apt. Step inside and go to shut the door and Baby Kittie runs in behind me from no where. I burst into tears and started praying and thanking the lord. She is home now my Christmas is complete. What a miracle. You cannnot understand how truely blessed I feel and how humbled I am by the power of our lord.

Losing Your Mind

Losing your mind. To some this may seem scary thought. Truth be told, "losing your mind" is really very fun. Why? Because when losing your mind or going crazy as they say you dont know that you are losing your mind so to you it is actually fun. Only when find your mind does it appear as a bad thing. So in other words while being crazy you dont have time to think whether or not you are crazy. You just are what you are. Anyway was this just a crazy thought or me losing my mind?

Cam

Express Yourself LIVE

This Really Cracks Me up

Today we our getting our parking lot retarred so to speak.......
This was the veiw of the wonderful Man that did all the hard work....
What a sexy Blower he has in his hands.....Im cracking up as I write this....Maybe he is cracking us a smile.....I only wish at this time to have some Butt Crack Filler Putty...I would Spackle that Ass closed......Poop Out......Jerry 

LiLLy May?

Above LiLLy May
Below LiLLY May and Ernest S...... RIP 

Just Writing Tonite A story about My Kittie and so much more

Had a wonderful dinner with Tim......Swordfish&Tuna with rice with greens beans and Swiss chard w/home pickles......AnyWay Just to talk about the way he works.....My kitties name is Lilly May.....My mother named her when I got the kittie......Lilly May is my great Grandmother......Awhile back my mother was moving to a smaller space in a co op.....She was letting go of some of her possesons she did not have room for....I took and resqued some items she had thrown away in the dumsters......These where my childhood memories.....I also took some pictures some I had seen since I was younger some I had not ever that I recall.....Anyway My mothers maiden name is Fisher......I took a picture from my mother about 3 to four years ago.....It was a picture of a tombstone which bore the family name Fisher.....I tucked it away for a while and made alittle shrine on the wall simple with nails and pictures.....some of my Mothers....some of my Fathers and some of friends and some of Mothers and Fathers friends...... To the people whove past on before......So Tim and I where talking after dinner....I forget how we got on the topic.....I had never really looked at the name on that picture of the tombstone until tonite as I recall.....I said What if?...Then no in my head.....I arose from my seat and to my surprize....The Tombstone is that of two people......That of Lilly M Fisher 1869-1917 and Ernest S Fisher 1870-1935.....Im truley humbled to be set up all these years and have him plan this night to happen just as it did....Hello To you as well LiLLy May and Ernest S......My great Grand Parents can still say Hello after all these years......Who would have thought only Him the Man Upstairs would know how to relay such a Message of the love as long as this......They say Im crazy....Im Bi Polar......I say Hello Grandma LiLLy and Hi Grandpa Ernest......Love your Great Grandson Jerry Lee.....Ps Im sorry for spelling your name wrong Grandma Lilly I did not know till tonite it was spelled with 2 L's

Shit House Rock

JUst screwing around with the cam. Had to take Lily May my Kittie on the bed to the vet today. 3 shots she is whipped.....The another two pics are in the Shit House...Poop Poop E Doo.....Crappy Joke.....Shit It?...I feel good went shopping with Mom today.....Veggies golor at the market......I m happy Lily will be getting better she is one of my Lights.......Heart and Soul......Jerry 

Progess or Whatever.....

Hey This is me Aug 01 2006....Coming along just fine...Spirits are High and all is good...Anyway Just thought Id take a few photos to show how far Ive come so far...Peace Out W/Love......Jerry 

Today Is a Good day

This is me going into 7 weeks of recovery.... Not bad.....Feeling great...Getting alot done.....Life is surely much different now.....Alive more than ever.....Feeling very good.....My heart is healing from so many things 

Whats Up Biotch

What If?

What If ? What if I get hit by a bus? What if I have Cancer again? Will I get my face fixed? Do I have a crazy kittie? Yes I do. Anyway just writing cause I felt like saying something. I gearing up towards recording again. Something to look forward to. I feel I mite have some things to sing about now. Positive attitude and good mind and body and beliefs and I can do anything.